Like most people I never expected it to happen to me. I knew it was coming but I kept thinking that I had done all the things to ensure I wouldn't be one of the ones. We had been warned a few weeks in advance that it was coming - but much like any tragedy you know is coming you never really think it is going to affect you. I was laid off.
The week prior the administrative offices called us all to a conference call - they told us they expected to do layoffs and expected to be done by the end of the week. We all read the local papers for our headquarters and saw the reports of 70 people losing their jobs. It was scary - but still it couldn't happen to me.
I just had the best review of my career with the company. I participated in all of the committees they said they were going to look to. I was even Vice President of a national board for the certification exam for our students. I had done all the right things. I was still unsettled.
They did not finish by the end of the week - another week began and ended. Two stressful weeks. Then I got the email from HR requesting a phone call meeting. My boss got on the line and told me I was getting the call no one wanted to get. I was devastated. I loved my job - I was told from my first professional position that I should teach and I was finally doing it. I got emails from my students thanking me for pushing them to do better. It wasn't enough.
I get to work for another few weeks because they need me. I need the job and the package I will get if I stay. I have a major surgery schedule just 5 days after I lose my job.
I know that God has a plan for me. I know that I am not where He has my purpose. I know that I will find it. I think that writing my feelings down will help me to work through my emotions. I invite you to go through this with me.
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